It all began one day, as it always does. I had hit rock-bottom in my life and had nowhere else to turn but to God. Isn’t that always the way???
When I couldn’t find the needed answers or resolutions to the situations of my present day life, I found myself tossing and turning in bed at night and not being able to sleep. After fighting this for many hours, and for many nights in a row, I was so aggravated one night that I decided to get up and just cry my eyes out until I had no more tears left in me. I did this, not only on this night, but for many nights in a row thereafter. Then, on one of those nights, I got up, as had become the routine.
I was ready to once again sit there on the couch and realize that there was no way out nor any solution to my present life dilemma(s). But this night was different! I found myself getting up and going out to the living room, as usual. I sat on the couch as I always did, got myself comfortable, and just sat there. I was all cried out. There were no more tears in me to cry.
Great! I thought. Now what do I do? And, before that thought had a chance to finish itself, something overtook me telling me to get my Bible, which hadn’t been touched nor opened in months! I had no idea what was going to happen next. I didn’t really know the Bible except that it existed. I hadn’t opened it since I purchased it back in 1977 and I only knew that because I was smart enough to have noted the date I purchased it in the Bible itself.
Well, I didn’t even know where in the Bible I could go to possibly find the answers I had been seeking for so long. But darn if I didn’t hear a voice tell me exactly where to look. Not only that, but I didn’t even have to be concerned about knowing where in the Bible I could locate this information. I just opened up the Bible and the pages staring back at me had the answers I so desperately needed to have at that moment. I couldn’t believe it!
I had heard of this happening to others but I never thought it would happen to me. But it did! I honestly don’t remember what I read since it was so far back from today but I do remember the overwhelming sensation that overtook me! As I read, I couldn’t believe that there were the answers and solutions I had been seeking for soooooo long! I can’t tell you how many tears I cried that night as I sat there continuing to read the Bible.
Not only was I crying but the atmosphere and the way I felt had changed. I was at peace for the first time in many, many days and months. I finally came to the realization that what others had said about reading the Bible was really true! It really does have every answer you could ever need. You just have to act upon your gut feelings and be open-minded enough to believe that you will be successful in finding what it is you need at that moment.
Well, that’s how this whole idea about writing a book came about. I just want to let you know that anyone, even you, can easily write a book, if it’s in you. I know I always had a knack for writing and for communicating through that writing usually using my computer, but I never thought it would lead to this. I was journaling my personal experiences for many years in longhand, never realizing that I was actually writing a book!
As I proceed on in this book, I will explain incidents that I have personally experienced that, when recalled later, would put me in such an awesome sensation, that I would not know what to do with it. All I remember wanting to do is scream it from the mountaintops to anyone who could hear just what had happened to me.
I have been so awakened by how God has chosen me as His child. He’s been so patient with me as I found my way in my walk with Him. I want you to experience this very same sensation I went through as I began to grow in my personal walk with God. You too can have these very same or similar things happen to you.
I have to preface this by saying that God’s hand is all over the writing of this book. The reason I know this is because I had been journaling my experiences and my walk with God for many years now. When I heard the voice telling me, early on, to just “write a book”, I disregarded it and went on with my life without God in it. Upon realizing that it was God impressing upon me to write a book, I still found it difficult to accept or believe. So, God, unbeknownst to me, stepped in once more.
At this time, I was becoming more and more involved with a few women ministry groups in the area. I found that there was a warm and loving acceptance of me by everyone in these groups, without even knowing the first thing about me. I found myself resisting and fighting God’s directives although, at the time, I didn’t know it was God who was doing the leading. God had to speak to me many times over before I even heard Him tell me to “write a book”. That’s all He said, “Write a book”.
I had no idea how I could possibly do this so I shrugged it off as if it were a whim and didn’t think about it again. But even though I didn’t think about it, God kept working on me by seeing to it that I would hear his directives in various media sources that were discussing things related to writing a book. I was being hounded!
They say God doesn’t quit until He gets your attention on what it is He needs you to know or do. Well, this rang soooooo true to me. I was hearing nothing but topics on books, publishing, and writing on the radio and tv as well as hearing about it again in songs and conversations. God even gave me sources to seek via advertisements and mail that were enticing me to pursue my writing skills for what He needed me to do.
It was all around me! I couldn’t get away from it. And, sad to say, it has taken me all this time to realize that this is what I had to do for God. During all this time, I could not believe or even accept the idea that I could ever write a book! So you are one of the first to encounter my very first attempt at writing a book. I feel a little like the disciples who were chosen to write the very Bible itself. Those are some big shoes to fill!
I will try to share with you, through this book, the many experiences I have gone through in my life. I will also try to explain the various sensations and growth I have experienced and encountered as I began and continued on in my personal walk with God.
Once I received the command to “write a book” from God, I knew it had to be about my personal experiences relating to God and how God has worked in my life. I want this book to be an inspiration to all of you out there that need a guiding hand, a shoulder to cry on, or a friend to talk to that you might not have at the moment. I’d like to believe that this book will touch your hearts. I strongly feel that there will be something, within this book, that you will be able to personally relate to which, in turn, will bless you with the needed insight, hope, enlightenment, and inspiration you need or are seeking.
This book is for all of you out there that have been where I was when I first picked up the Bible that night so many years ago seeking my desperately needed answers and solutions. I know that what happened to me back then could also happen to you as well.
When you don’t know what else to do, who else to go to, or where else you can go, please know that God is always there for you …. just waiting for you to come around. God is just like you or me in that He is available to you whenever you need Him. He’ll hear you wherever you are and He will talk back to you, console you, and stay with you through it all. When you are at your wit’s ends and you just can’t seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel, remember to turn to God FIRST. He’s just waiting for you to come to Him.
I was where you are. I want to believe that my main reason for writing this book is to help you enrich your life, get your life back on track, give you some inspiration and understanding that you’ll be alright, you’ll get back on track. I got back on track and I know you can too.
This is my seed to sow to you in obedience to God. I’m hoping I can relay everything I need to within this book that you need to find, hear, seek, and learn. May the Good Lord above guide my hands as I continue to write this book in strict obedience to Him and to His directives for my life.
May this book be a helpful guide to you to finding your way out of your difficult times and into the peace and joy that God has waiting for you.